Ouch January 30, 2007
Posted by Chris in Discouragement.1 comment so far
Today’s been one of those hard days. I had a pretty good weekend, the guys from one of the youth clubs I run had a sleepover on Saturday night, which was good fun. I was up playing OpenArena until 5:30 am on the Church Office computers. I even made it up by 8am to make porridge for everyone and was at Church for 10am! (It helps that the Church Office is next door to the Church!) Despite that, and a reasonably good day yesterday, I’ve been feeling pretty low today.
I had my normal fortnightly line management meeting with the two pastors of my church this morning which went ok, but not great. I guess I just worry that I’m doing stuff all wrong, or that I’m not efficient enough, or something like that. I’ve got to write a 1500 word essay a day for the next two weeks to catch up with my coursework that I’ve got a bit behind on. I suppose it was encouraging to be told by my tutor that I’m normal though, and that by this point in the first year everyone is panic writing! The church computers and ftp access have been playing up, and I can’t seem to figure out the problem at all. To finish it all off, the pastors have been dealing with some major issue in the church leadership (I don’t know what it is, it’s confidential) but they’ve been stressed out and inadvertently a bit abrupt towards me, and my fiance seems really upset that I told her to stop tidying my house!
She complains that I’m not tidying it (I am normally a tidy freak, but I’m so busy I can’t be at the moment). If ‘d asked her to help I wouldn’t be so annoyed by her complaining about how much tidying needs doing, but I haven’t even asked for her help! She said that my room being a bit untidy was stopping her moving stuff in for when we get married in May. Truth is, it’s only a bit of washing on the floor, sorted ready to go in the washing machine. It could go back under the bed where it normally lives if she wants it out of sight.
Ahh well, I feel a little better for airing all that. Thanks for reading. I hope I haven’t depressed you too much. Now for some more essay writing….
